Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Kayla and the Maize



Kayla stared across a thicket of maize. The seemingly endless rows of emerald shoots stood in contrast with the orange and blue of her skirt. The silver queen had grown fast and thick this year, ripe for an early harvest. 

She squinted, looking past the gaze of the gleaming sun. She could just barely make out the tip of the church steeple at the end of Serena Lane. This was the road he would come down, but not for a while. 

"Come to the maize by Tohogan's farm," James had told her over the phone. "You know, where we used to play. Meet me just before dusk."

Kayla was so excited to see her childhood friend that she had come almost an hour early. But the heat and the humidity kept coaxing pearls of sweat on her brow, and she soon began to regret her punctuality. Kayla reached into her satchel and blotted her forehead with a kerchief. If only there was shade! 

She surveyed the field, and spotted comfort in an old elm tree a football field away. She hurried towards the sanctuary. The ulmus had borne the years gracefully--it was covered in pockmarks of lovers' trysts and their broken promises. Half of a plank dangled from a rope hung from a higher branch, a relic from a stranger's childhood. Kayla sighed relief and sat down under the umbrella of leaves.

Though she and James had practically been neighbors, Kayla hadn't seen him since high school. After graduation, she had hastily taken the first train away from the suburbs. Away from her parents. Away from their divorce, only to step into her own a decade later. Away from James.

Just then, a faded yellow jalopy sputtered its way down the road, coughing puffs of black smoke now and again, and startled Kayla from her thoughts. She frowned at the inbound motorcar. Was it James? Would he be seen driving something like that? The car slowed to a halt at the far edge of the field, and a hefty man got out. He popped the trunk, and furiously rummaged for a few minutes. The man then slammed the trunk shut, kicked the car, and shrieked in frustration. He got back in the car, and didn't slow as he drove past the elm. For the second time that afternoon, Kayla gave a sigh of genuine relief.

Though she tried to relax under the cooling shade, she could barely contain her nerves. She fidgeted with her bracelet. Was it too gaudy? She took it off, examined her hand, and put it back on again. She felt naked without it. Thinking a touch-up was in order, she fished a compact out of her bag. She scrutinized every bump, every freckle on her face, before deciding she was okay.

As the sun began to meander it's way to the horizon, she caught a glimpse of a handsome stranger walking down the road. Kayla's heart was pounding in her chest. This was him! The stranger was dressed in a spruce suit, complete with a tie. He seemed to be carrying something under his arm. It looked like a telescoping tube. She seemed to recall James saying something about architecture. She smiled to herself and stood up. The closer the stranger came, the faster Kayla's heart raced. Soon he was upon her, and beamed.

"Howdy, ma'am."

"Uhh, hi," Kayla croaked. She could barely speak!

"A little hot to be standing outside, isn't it?" the man asked her.

"Yes, a little," Kayla blushed. She was at a surprising loss for words. He was just so comely.

"I'd loathe to leave a pretty girl standing, but I have to carry some urgent documents to Dr. Laurey. I haven't seen you around these parts before, but maybe I'll run into you in town."

She smiled politely, but realized this wasn't her stranger. "Maybe," she demurred. 

The stranger continued onward, resigning Kayla, all alone, to watch dusk pastel the sky pink then burgundy. Soon she saw the sun fall into the embrace of the night. She picked herself up off the ground and bent over to grab her satchel. It would be a long, dark walk home.

As she rose, Kayla heard a measured whisper.

"Kissy?"

Monday, February 16, 2015

floating.

"floating"

like a star without a shine,

or satin without a sheen,
when you are not beside me,
i'm left floating in-between.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

flowers.


i once found a flower,
beautiful yet grim,
i plucked her from her home,
and smelled her on a whim.

she was fragranced of the heavens,
an evanescent sweet,
but her petals were a’ plenty
her spume was soon replete.

then i felt her plumage,
ever soft and plush,
but when i tired of one,
it crumbled with my touch.

now this once resplendent beauty,
was looking frail and thin,
so i found another blossom,
a patsy for my whims.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Quiet songs for a cold december

A song I wrote:

Favorite Fan

You were the girl that I thought I would never meet.
You were just sexy, and smart, and ever sweet.
We were up on the roof, you were my only queen,
But now we're stuck on the ground, in the mezzanine.

I'll take it. We might make it. It hurts too damn bad to break it.

There you were my favorite fan,
We should be dancing, but you just stand.
Why didn't you try to take my hand,
When I asked for another dance, tonight?

Our summertime highs, were a sight to see,
All bubbles and froth, and a happy we.
Now the strain in your eyes, its hard to see.
I think I should take from this jail and set your free.

You fake it. We won't make it. It hurts too damn bad to take it.

There you are my faithless fan,
You are dancing with another man,
It's sad I wasn't in your plan,
So now I'll seek another fan, tonight.

Friday, June 21, 2013

Undeserving

I don't deserve my family. I wish I was a better man; hopefully some day I will be.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Pain

Broken

I cannot sleep, for I shall dream,
Of you and me, and all our scenes.
My mind is broken, my heart unfurled,
As tears turn limestone into marl.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Writing

The thesis writing begins! It will be a long road to finish up, but I am looking forward to finally being done with school after this year. This was written for my muse at an earlier:

The Artist She Is
Love paints the portrait of the perfect sunset,
But before she was done, the bristle frayed.
Now pain mutes the stroke of the tremulous brush.
Tears run the colors, but the picture hangs flush.

And this was written when I was in high school:

Color

I do not see in black and white,
For color does not blind my sight.
You and me, we're just the same,
So why're we separate in this game?

The very same way we walk to school,
Yet "Not Allowed" is your rule.
Does color really matter much?
Ain't I human, with a human touch?

Your sniffling nose when your sick,
Your beaming face in total bliss.
I cry, I whimper when I'm sad,
You do the same when feeling bad.

We all the same,you and me,
We're no different as you see.
I laugh, I love, I listen too,
I'm in this melting pot with you.


Finished Reading:
"Simulcron-3" by Daniel F. Galouye
"The Unacustmoned Earth" by Jhumpa Lahiri
"Gitanjali" by Rabindranath Tagore

Currently Reading:
"Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Alborn
"The Line of Beauty" by Alan Hollinghurst

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Character

The weather wasn't bad but it wasn't pleasant either. It was cold. There was a slight breeze, and that only made things worse. It was the perfect day to sip a hot chocolate, but there was none to be found.

A middle-aged couple walked down from the mesa, where they had just seen a brilliant sun lazily fall into the bosom of the earth. A languoring end to a slow day.

That's when they saw the child. She was squatting on the floor next to a display of homemade trinkets. Cheap jewelry made from desperation, sweat and tears. "Two necklaces for ten or one for six," her mother offered.

Another couple brushed by, commenting, "That isn't even real turquoise."

"Poor girl," the gentlemen whispered to his lady. "Let's buy something for her troubles."

"I know," she murmured, while he rummaged through his wallet for cash.

He pulled out a twenty and exclaimed, "We'll take one!"

The joy on the little girl's face outshined the sun. "Which one, sir?" she asked.

"Show them the hematite, Chantel," the mother urged. Scrutinizing the lady, she explained, "Those would look better on you, I think. My family made all of these on our reservation, they are genuine."

Chantel handed the lady the necklace, and the lady handed her a twenty dollar bill.

"Do you have any change?"  the mother asked. "You were our only customer today."

"I'm sorry," the gentlemen said. "I don't."

"I might have some change in my purse. Our car is just down the trail," the lady offered. But then she remembered she had left her purse in the motel room.

Sorrys were exchanged and the couple wandered down the trail. Suddenly, they stopped, looked at each other and smiled. No words were said, but the lady ran back up with the money.

She came back down with four necklaces she didn't need. She gave her husband and hug and they walked quietly to their car. Twenty dollars for that smile was a steal.

-----
That man was my father; the lady my mother. People I want to become before I die.


Monday, June 18, 2012

The Harlequin Caper: An Offensive Children's Novel For Adults

Hey folks, I will be publishing parts of my novel for your viewing pleasure in the next few months. Hope yawl enjoy this:


It was a quiet day at the office for all the grammers. There had been no "incidents" so far. Gable was enjoying his morning cup of milk, even though he was lactose intolerant--knowing full well that his mild gastric discomfort would pale in comparison to his co-workers' impending olfactory duress. A small smile passed on his face. This would teach Mrs. Airy, the plump company secretary and team mom, to force him to play on the company softball team. He could picture her nasal reaction now:

"My goooooodness gracious! What is that aaaaawful smeeeeell." 

He imagined the gallons of smell-sol she'd spray across the acres of Grammville's programming farms. That obnoxious clean car smell would permeate into the deepest recesses of the workplace, causing even the smelliest of employees to be fragranced away. He shuddered at the thought, recalling the old adage they taught him at the grammer academy: "A smelly grammer, is a productive grammar because that means he works instead of showering" (despite an exquisite nerd-based education, the rectors at PAOG had wanton regard for the intricacies of the English language, lacking a zen-like knowledge of homophones.) Gable, none-the-wiser about this grammatical Waterloo, took comfort in the refuge of his teachers' wisdom. Maybe he would make up for the loss of his stench with a gaming purge at the local LAN cafe.

You see, though he wasn't Korean, Gable fancied himself as a real time strategist. He had showed inklings of this talent at a very early age, winning his first speed typing contest at the precocious age of seven. He had cleanly trounced the imposing opposition, consisting of middle aged professional typists, airline gate attendants, and nerds. When the score board showed that he had neatly bested the Lemon County record (which had stood for fifty years, since the heady days of Typewriter Harold, a local legend of sorts) coming in at 200 words per minutes, he jumped quicker than a brown fox, exclaiming: "Jeepers! I'm the bestest typer the world as ever seen!" Sadly his perfunctory typing skills did not parlay into either grammar or spelling bee victories (but you see, he wasn't Indian either, though he did love tikka masala, so this was to be excused.)

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Musings

Written for my muse, wherever she may be:

The muse has come and gone,
And yet the willow weeps.
What can I say to her,
When sadness slowly creeps?

Serendipity, come find me again. :(

Finished Reading:

"On Her Majesty's Secret Service" by Ian Fleming
"Indecent Proposal" by Jack Engelhard

Currently Reading:

"Simulcron-3" by Daniel F. Galouye
"The Line of Beauty" by Alan Hollinghurst

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Spelling Bees are for huge nerds with no life skills

I recently turned on ESPN2, during an NBA post-season in which TNT owns all the broadcasting rights. I fully expected to be greeted with some second-tier sports such as women's golf, bowling, or lacrosse (disclaimer: my brother played on the ucla lacrosse team, so I am allowed to make fun of him for it :P). Much to my chagrin, I was greeted by the American tragedy that is the Scripps National Spelling Bee. This is the contest in which a bunch of children, who apparently have nothing better to do than read the dictionary over and over again, get on stage and spell words. Each kid gets up on stage and has 1.5minutes to figure out how to spell some weird word like "gotterdammerung" or "flabbergasted" or some other non-sense. They get to ask the definition of the word, and its pronunciation, its country of origin and other useless shit like that.

As the seconds tick by on the clock, the tension mounts like a horny dog on a faded davenport. The worst part is that the viewers are treated to shitty ESPN announcer gems such as: "oh, that was a clutch spell", "not bad for her rookie year", "heartbreak, anyone would have trouble with those Romany roots". What. The. Fuck.

First of all, WHO GIVES A SHIT. I have a spellchecker for a reason. I can't spell half the words in this post, but my spellchecker makes this problem pretty much moot. This might have been a huge deal about a hundred years ago when people couldn't afford paper, but now this contest is completely outdated.

Second, what for the love of god, is a clutch spell? I can totally understand what a clutch free-throw is (props to Sparks in 2004 for giving that a whole new meaning). I can even understand the power of a clutch date-save: "but baby, I love you" can make a frown turn upside down, because you are gonna get a little bit of that gratuitous BOOM THO. Color me unimpressed with the rewards for a clutch-spell (hint: there are NONE).

Third, these nerds might get into Harvard, but they won't be able to find their way out of a jammed locker in high school. The problem is not with the kids, its with their shitty parents, who haven't given them good set of values at home. As such, I have come up with a random list of seven things that are more useful than practicing for or participating in spelling bees:

1. Running around in a circle, trying to tag yourself out in the eponymous playground game
2. Learning how to drive a car (this will help for number three)
3. Girls (if you are a boy), and boys (if you are a girl)
4. Digging a mud pit in your backyard (good practice in case you join the armed forces or in case you have an emergency mud-bowl some point in college).
5. Eating three-day old, freezer-burned ice cream from your date last weekend that went better than expected, but not soooo perfect.
6. Dating and number 3 a second time
7. Literally *anything* else in you can think of in life


Monday, April 9, 2012

Pretty Pictures!




Finished reading "Vernon God Little" by D.B.C. Pierre.

Currently Reading:

"On Her Majesty's Secret Service" by Ian Fleming
"The Line of Beauty" by Alan Hollinghurst

Now, some pretty pictures I took of devices I made this past week.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Bond, James Bond

Finished "Moonraker" by Ian Fleming. It was alright. Now reading "Vernon God Little". A poem I wrote for someone, when I was hurting really badly:

"Silentium amoris"

How will I know,
Of your greatest joys, your deepest pains,
When you will never let me in?
For what does the future have in store,
Are the sunflower dalliances nevermore?
Will the winter's cold keep us apart,
Never to finish what did not start?
So stand softly, and listen, to the wind,
Whispering this song, from now till the end:
Filled with sorrow and dismay,
Amo te, mea cara, sed non amas me.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Day 02

Biking: 7 miles (3.5miles to work and back)
Pushups: 200

Reading:

"Do Andriods Dream of Electric Sheep?" by Phillip K. Dick

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

From Fat to Fit

Follow me on my journey back to land of people in shape! Today is the first workout:

Running: 1 mile
Pushups: 200
Sit-ups: 50

Reading Completed:

"Third Graders at War" by Felix G.
"Jarhead" by Anthony Swofford
"The Baghdad Express" by Joel Turnipseed

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

More Reading!

Finished:

"The Lovely Bones" by Alice Sebold
"The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time" by Mark Haddon

Currently Reading:

"Flowers For Algernon" by Daniel Keyes
"Kim" -> This one just won't go away! Yes, it's that terrible.

On the Radar:

"Tender is the Night" by F. Scott Fitzgerald
"American Pastoral" by Phillip Roth (sorry Chithra!)
"Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead" by Tom Stoppard

Thursday, March 3, 2011

March Madness Begins with Books!

Finished:

"Alice's Adventures in Wonderland" by Lewis Carroll
"In the Beginning Was the Command Line" by Neal Stephenson

In Progress:

"Kim" by Rudyard Kipling
"The Lovely Bones" by Alice Sebold

Coming Up Soon:

"Tender is the Night" by F. Scott Fitzgerald

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

New Year and More Books

Finished:

"Disgrace" by J.M. Coetzee
"If I die in a combat zone: Box me up and ship me home." by Tim O'Brien
"Heart of Darkness" by Joseph Conrad
"My Dog Skip" by Willie Morris

On Deck:

"The Lovely Bones" by Alice Sebold
"Kim" by Rudyard Kipling (seriously, this book really sucks and is boring)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Thoughts

What is needed to make an impression? Thoughts to follow soon. And now, an excerpt from the short story entitled "Conversations After Dark":

It had been two weeks since I had last seen Johnny. He shipped out before I had a chance to say goodbye, so the I found myself apologizing to a phantom.

"Sorry, for that baby, I should have never doubted you. I was drunk, and I didn't mean it. Godspeed and good luck. No, I don't want anything. Just come back home. Baby, please..."

And then two weeks after that, I realized my pleas had fallen on deaf ears. Once again, I am left all alone in the world without sunshine on the horizon.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Haiku

Little droplets fall,
Ink turned to art on paper,
The weary poet rests.